I know that I’ve already posted today, but I’ve been reflecting on today and I really wanted to get today’s events in writing! It is so easy for me to forget the good days when I’m experiencing a bad day. How is it that we just let the bad overwhelm the good? Why can’t we just look at the bad as just a step towards the good, instead of a step back from the good? If we didn’t have the bad, we wouldn’t appreciate the good, so we really just need to appreciate the good!
Anyways, back to today! Some super great things happened today that I want to be able to look back on and remember. So, I’m going to go through them and all of the details now!
⇾ I made it to my economics class one minute before it started!
Normally, I’m either super early or vaguely late because of the bus system. It was really looking like I was going to be late today by at least a few minutes, but I somehow made it there with a minute to spare!
⇾ My group holds all of the power in my economics class, so I’m actually somewhat popular.
My economics class is working on a case study, so we were divided into 7 groups. Each group represents a special interest group. My group is the smallest and is really undesirable for any alliances because, when we maximize our interests, every other team has much better options to go with than us. However, our professor gave us the ability to veto one of the plans before voting begins, so now everyone wants to work with us in order to ensure that their plan doesn’t get vetoed! I’m the point of contact for my group so now a lot of people are talking to me and trying to gain favor with me. I like my coffee black, guys!
⇾ I don’t feel completely useless in my other class!
My other class today is working on a piece of property for the city of Raleigh. My group is working on aesthetics and land use, so we are currently tracking the land deeds back. I made a super intricate timeline to try and make sense of it. Now, I finally feel like I can contribute something of value to this project, considering I’ve just been lost for the last bit of the semester because I’m not well versed in most of the stuff we’ve been doing outside!
⇾ I had some super yummy food for lunch!
I had leftovers from last weekend when I went to lunch with my boyfriend. We went to Himalayan Nepali Cuisine, which you should totally check out if you’re ever in Raleigh/Cary! Today, I finished up the last of my rice and paneer tikka masala! It was so good!
⇾ I went to the gym and had a super satisfying workout!
I went super hard at my leg day today. Hip adductions, hip abductions, leg curls, leg extensions… all with 3 sets of 15 at the max weight I can do without collapsing, plus a wall sit and sumo squats! It was so hard, but I felt amazing afterwards!
⇾ I’m wearing some awesome, new workout leggings today!
Last night, I bought some Danskin leggings at Marshall’s and didn’t try them on because I was in a rush. When I got home, I tried them on and they fit perfectly! I’m wearing them today so I could just go straight from class to the gym. I just feel so confident and great! I seriously recommend Danskin to anyone! They are very popular in the dance world, even Jenna Dewan-Tatum wears their apparel!
⇾ My blog post went up this morning, and this one will go up tonight!
I wanted to get on a schedule where I could have new content posted every Tuesday and Thursday. I made sure to get a post up today, which is in line with that. While I wasn’t planning on this one, I’m proud of myself for really working on my content and committing to this website.
⇾ I went for a nice walk and socialized!
Heading out for my walk, I ended up getting sidetracked by talking to my friends that work at the 24-hour desk! So, I got to catch up with them, which was cool. Then, I went on a little walk in the sort of warm night air by myself. It was very relaxing!
⇾ Most importantly
While I was sitting on the bus to go home, covered in sweat with my face completely flushed, I had an epiphany. I felt the burn in my legs and in my lungs. I was so tired and worn out, sitting there in my Danskin leggings, hiking boots, and wifebeater. You know what was really amazing, though? I realized that I was just happy. I realized that I was actually making real steps towards the future that I want and the person that I want to be.
Working on my fitness, getting my tattoo, doing disability advocacy, spending time alone with myself and the people that I care about… I’m finally getting there and making these strides, rather than putting it off or disillusioning myself. It was just an awesome feeling. In that moment, I felt like I was enough, and that’s not something that I can often say that I feel.
It was just a super great day. Sometimes I just need a win, you know? Today was my win. I am looking forward to more wins to come!